I have stretchmarks all over my tummy.. the whole tummy... even on my thighs..

And today while looking at my side view in the mirror... I noticed cellulite marks on my butt and my thighs!!! Arghh...

I am going to be damn ugly after my pregnancy sia.. looking like all of the slimming advertisement models.. crap..

And I was watching Discovery Home and Health today.. there is this program called "Birth Day" and it shows women giving birth.. I like to watch such programs becoz it kinda prepare me for what I should be expecting during my own labour.. but so far all the episodes show women starting off insisting on no epidural and later decided to opt for it in the end... and it is putting thoughts in my head of "ops...will I end up like them? am I making the wrong choice of insisting on no epidural?"